Update part 1: College & the Navy
Hi guys! First off, thank you for your support on me doing this update series 🙂 I feel like a lot has been going on and now that I’m back to blogging I need to update you all!
As many of you know I graduated high school this past June, but did not go to college this year. I did do some tours/apply my senior year but never committed. I didn’t feel ready, I didn’t want to pay for it.
I met with a recruiter for both the Navy and the Air Force reserves. Shortly into the meeting with the Navy I was offered to try getting a spot for Active duty special operations AIRR (aka rescue swimming). My fitness level easily surpassed minimum and I was “healthy”. I never brought up my issues with ed because I thought I was to a point where I was past using behaviors. After meeting with a hip specialist (remember, I was born with hip dysplasia) I had to re-think spec ops. Deciding it was a bad idea my recruiter wanted me to just do the ASVAB and see what happened, so I did. My scores were good and I swung a contract for an electrician. I still had the option to try out for spec ops if I wanted in the future. College would be paid for, I would serve 8 years and leave for boot camp April 24th 2012. Sounds great right?
It’s not what I wanted. The single only reason I thought seriously about joining was for college money. Yes, that is a great reason and wonderful opportunity but my heart wasn’t in it. No matter what I did I could not get my heart wrapped around the whole idea. I would rather go to college for DPT and come out in debt but happy with my decision than join the Navy with college guaranteed after and not be happy. That was the decision. I don’t know myself well, but I know myself enough that I can say without a doubt I would not be happy with the Navy.
Mentally I have things to work on, I am going to start seeing a nutritionist and have been doing group therapy and individual therapy. I am working hard to learn how to respect and trust myself, two things I have struggled immensely with since around age 5. I’m ready to let go of such strict behaviors that have consumed me since childhood, I feel like joining the military is strict and need to get myself away from that lifestyle not further into it.
What does this all mean? I am currently in the process of touring colleges that spark interest to me for their PT/ accelerated DPT programs. I am working on the whole application process and my essay. I will be attending college in the fall of 2012, and without a doubt… be in debt. I could not be happier with my decision, it feels right.
Note: I think that the military (any branch) is a fantastic opportunity for anyone who wants it. It offers such great benefits and can really help to advance you and your goals. I am so honored that I was offered a job and that I could have been a part of something bigger than myself. I am not in anyway against it, it just isn’t for me.
Next post: Update part 2: Recovery for good!
Thank you guys for the support and for reading this blog 🙂